What are you doing New Years?

Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD), also known as winter blues or winter depression.

Symptoms include: difficulty waking up in the morning, morning sickness, tendency to oversleep as well as to overeat, and especially a craving for carbohydrates, which leads to weight gain. Other symptoms include a lack of energy, difficulty concentrating on completing tasks, and withdrawal from friends, family, and social activities. All of this leads to the depression, pessimistic feelings of hopelessness, and lack of pleasure which characterize a person suffering from this disorder.

I was explaining to my friend how I've been feeling lately and he brought up this term. All I've seemed to be saying lately is, "I don't know what's wrong with me." I can't wake up for anything, I miss tests in classes and could care less, I feel slightly lost in the trails of life, and my regular salvation of the gym just hasn't been saving me lately. My mom always use to tell me that it was typical for me to get depressed when my birthday approached and it usually lasted until the beginning of the year. A couple of weeks ago I started reflecting on my birthday and how the age of twenty-two would grace me identical to the age of my dearly departed Monique. I didn't think it would escalate into today. However, there is one easy solution for me. It's simply to gain the courage to see things differently. I signed up again for Bikram Yoga today and will start making my workouts more exciting. I want to catalog all my books in my new journal, and just take some time for meditation these upcoming weeks. I have so much to ponder on and so much flooding my veins. Sure, I don't feel like being this holiday season's socialite but when was I ever? I simply want peace, quiet, and the freedom to do what I want.

I want to remain unattached and free.